Praying Boldly

Why is it that when crisis strikes those around us, we are so quick to pray boldly… for complete healing or for miracles, but when tragedy strikes home, we pray for God to help us through this difficult time… I think I am one of the guiltiest for doing this. Is it because I do not believe that God can heal or perform miracles? Absolutely not, quite the contrary… I have witnessed miracles. I have spent a wonderful 13 additional years with my best friend, 2^nd mom, and aunt long past from when we would have expected when she was diagnosed with leukemia 13 years ago. When we found out she would need to find a match for her bone marrow transplant, God provided a perfect stranger willing to do this, since none of our family was a match. Then when she became very ill after her transplant with overwhelming infection, and graft versus host disease, God performed his miracle seamlessly for all to see, and she was healed. She is here and cancer free, and has an amazing testimony of how God brought her through this journey. I have seen miracles in my job… 1 pound babies growing into little children, and while one might argue it is medical technology, I would have to disagree. It is nothing short of a miracle each time a baby is born healthy, perfectly formed. I have seen miracles. So if the problem is not lack of faith, then why this week have I defaulted into just asking God to help my family through our current situation rather than praying for nothing short of a miracle? Praying that my dad was misdiagnosed? Praying that his disease without a cure will not progress? Praying that he will remain just the way he is today, which is a wonderful father and loving papa. So today I began praying for a miracle, and if this is indeed the road that was chosen for my family, I pray for God’s guidance and strength and that he might prepare our hearts for his will… because this is much bigger than anything we could get through alone. Tonight I find strength in His words, “And the LORD, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you; He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed.” (Deuteronomy 31:8) I am thankful he has already paved the road for my family on this journey, so why be afraid?

lost photos!

So I found a memory card from my camera that I had yet to download... yes this means I have too many photo cards, but I take too many photos! here is my beautiful baby at 15 months with her sweet little cousin Hudson!

I remember trying to get a photo of them both looking at the camera, which was impossible, so instead we settled one for them both crying!

And then, I found these... what in the world goes on when I am not home? Emilia is wearing Chris's laptop backpack and a neon hat I have never seen!

At least they were having fun! HAHA!

Happy Fall!

No time to blog, but these are too beautiful not to share~ thanks Kay for the amazing photos (as usual)!