Thursday, May 19, 2011

Happy Mothers Day/ happy birthday!!!

Mother's day always falls right around my birthday, so we decided to combine the celebrations a bit, and visit one of my favorite places in KC, but first to start the morning right with a nice pair of shoes... she's growing so fast she will really fit into my shoes soon enough!

We went to church early service, and then took my mom with us for the afternoon since my dad was stuck working. And then off to the Monet exhibit at the Nelson for a fun afternoon and brunch at the Rozelle Court Restaurant. They had a special activities for little ones that afternoon, so Emilia had a blast!


She was especially impressed with their dessert bar, while the adults ate our weight in their "fingerling" mashed potatoes... if you've never tried them, you should... they were AMAZING! Then as you will see below, "Dan" or "Ted" (depends on the day) joined us for brunch!. Chris's brother, Danny, brought her this bear when she was a baby in the hospital, and he goes pretty much anywhere with us now...

The scenery is absolutely gorgeous...

And then we went outside for some sun and more art.
They had this really fun area for the kids to paint their own version of Monet's famous painting, Waterlilies. I was reminded of Emilia's 1st introduction to Monet here when she was about 6 months old... I have to say she had a bit more appreciation when she tried to replicate his masterpiece!


Below are her and Chris with her own "version" of Monet's Waterlilies... I think we have a future artist on our hands. :) It was a lovely day and a great day to be a mom and enjoy what you love!

Graduation

So my graduation finally came on Cinco de Mayo, and two pretty little girls (Emilia and Lily) came with the two cutest signs my sister, Melissa, had helped them make...
and here are their signs up close (click to enlarge)...


The photographer of the ceremony will remain nameless (cough...cough) but we'll just say this was the clearest photo of the ceremony.... moving on :) ...
Below is a pic with a few of my clasmates and my instructor, Daphne, which just happens to be one of my coworkers at my new job!

Emilia is probably the most excited about me being done... and she'll be even happier when I am done studying for boards!

But I think my neices and nephews were just as excited to have something to celebrate!
  
 
 More photos with family! I could not have gotten through the last 3 years with all the help from my friends and family... they have been such an amazing support and encouragement, and words cannot express how thankful I am to have them!
    
   
   
We ended the celebration at Tom Fooleries on the Plaza, which was me and Heather's favorite college hang out many years ago! We shared a steak for old times sake, and finished the night with the yummy cake my mom brought and a twinkie with a sparkler on top (of course!:))

   

Friday, May 6, 2011

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!

Hi everyone!! I just wanted to say Congratulations on a job well done....As you all may know, Elizabeth graduated from school yesterday and I am SO proud of her.  She has done a fantastic job these last few years doing homework, clinicals, studying, being a wife, and most importantly being an awesome mother to Emilia.  I am sure she will post some pictures of the event soon, but I am not sure how great they turned out b/c the normal photographer was on the stage graduating.  Once again, GREAT JOB and CONGRATULATIONS Elizabeth and I love you so much!!

Chris

Monday, April 25, 2011

Happy EASTER!

All week I have been focusing story time on what this week means to us, as Christians, and she has several Bibles that help explain the events leading up to Easter, in a kid-friendly way, so we have been reading these frequently this week, as well as drawing “t’s” which are crosses, and what this represents, and how Jesus had to carry his own cross. This is a very graphic topic, but it is one I think is so important for her to understand the magnitude of Gods love for us that He would do this for us. This is what our whole week has been focused on, and I thought I was doing a pretty good job, until prayer time came on Thursday night…” Dear Jesus, thank you so much for letting your son die on the cross for our sins so we don’t have to… it must have hurt and you were sad, and maybe one day I will learn what sin is at school, because I don’t know what it is, Amen.” Isn’t it funny the words you just assume they know? So although we have now determined my failure as a preschool teacher, on to our real Easter! This morning we enjoyed a wonderful sermon, followed by baking, and some time with family. Although we do give her an Easter basket, we don’t teach her about any sort of Easter bunny, so I was throne off by her question, “Mama, what does a bunny have to do with Jesus dying on the cross?” For once she seemed satisfied with an I don’t know answer! Thank goodness! Hope everybody had a wonderful Easter!



 


 

Emilia loving on her cousin, Lily...

Chris took these photos while they listened intently about the rules of the egg hunt (to ensure they helped each other all get some!)

   

They all helped each other find one of each color (per said rules!) 

Picture Hudson saying, "its right here Lily!" and then screaming, "Over HERE LILY!!"

 


Then we went to Chris's brother in law and sister's house to see some more cousins... which included this pretty girl...


And Emilia's tallest cousin, Payton, who was nice enough to hide the eggs, and I wish I had the camera out when him and her were running around the house, hiding and looking for the Easter bunny. Hopefully Tom sends us copies, but just picture Emilia on his shoulders, and him standing behind a tree, with his legs sticking out below, and her head sticking out above... it was quite entertaining!

Saturday, April 9, 2011

tomorrow

So I am way behind on updating, which is a good sign, because today I completed my 3rd full day of 12 hour day clinicals. Prior to my surgery, I had asked my sunday school class to pray for quick healing, because my doctor recommended 3 weeks off, but agreed to release me when I felt well enough, and was no longer requiring pain medication. He kind of laughed when I asked to go back in 10 days, but God answered our prayers and I was able to return exactly 10 days post operation. I am not going to paint a rosy picture and say these three days were easy, but with ibuprofen, tylenol, ice, heat, and much prayer, I was able to make it through the days and do my job. I have much more to update, as far as what was found during surgery, and what to expect in the future, but right now I am exhausted, and I can hear 3 little ones giggling, which means Emilia and her cousins, who are sleeping over, have found something better to do than sleep, so I must intervene! In the meantime, I had set up a blog for my parents to keep us updated as to my dads daily appointments at the Mayo clinic... if you will remember I was supposed to go but my surgery got in the way, so I thought the next best way to stay updated was a daily play by play/test by test blog! Please keep them in your prayers through this journey, and if you want to see how God has already blessed our family this week, you can read it at http://oursoldiersbattle.blogspot.com/. I prayed for a miracle healing, or that he had been misdiagnosed last fall, and I think we are seeing answers to so many prayers!

Saturday, April 2, 2011

A new day

So today has been a new day, and to clear some confusion between my husbands and my postings, my Dr only wrote 4 days worth of pain medications because a pain specialist was supposed to meet with me prior to leaving the hospital, and manage my medication, but unfortunately due to miscommunication, this did not occur before I was sent home, and thus I was left to manage on my own until things were sorted out! An unfortunate and painful mistake... no pun intended! :) The pain I am now battling is nothing narcotics would help with anyways, but instead muscle spasms and nerve pain, as my C7 nerve is finally being re-perfused... yea and ouch! I will take it any day though to the alternative. Tomorrow I will post more of what was actually found during the operation, but for now am off to rest and hopefully heal some more! Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers! Oh, and PS, the bummer part of my surgery is they actually shaved the back of my head/hair line, and let me tell you surgeons are not trained to do this in a straight line.... AKA no ponytails for me for the next year or so, or I might be mistaken for one of those "skate-boarders" in the 90s that thought shaving the back of your hair was the cool thing to do! Ummm, and I cannot ride a skateboard, so that is not me! :)

Thursday, March 31, 2011

From hear on out...

So I was told today should be my toughest day, yet, and I think they were right. The pain is hard to describe, as it is not like I expected it to be, but intstead is muscle spasms that almost take your breath away, meaning they are unreleaved by pain medication. Now I am taking a muscle relaxor as well, but these spasms are also causing me to have nerve pain running down my back and shoulder, which they are trying an anti-seizure drug to relieve this pain, so we shall see! Despite these past few difficult days, I am still thankful I opted for this surgical option, and am so thankful to have had no surgical complications thus far. I have received so many kind cards, and have had wonderful meals brought to our home every day by some friend or family member. We are absolutely overwhelmed with your kindness and generosity that has allowed me to focus on healing, and taken much of the cooking burden off of Chris, which I know he is so thankful for! I will update more tomorrow, but for this evening I am heading off to bed, and thanking God for his faithfulness and blessings in out lives.Here's to hoping tomorrow brings me one day closer to complete healing, and here is a glimpse of the beautiful cards I get to enjoy from my friends and from Emilia's class mates at school! It is impossible for them to not bring a smile to your face! 

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Help relieve the pain

So today was another tough day.  Elizabeth is still dealing with a lot of pain and the doctor didn't offer any other ways to help relieve the pain.  She was only prescribed about 4 days worth of pain medicine.  So, Elizabeth has not been taking as much as prescribed and spreading them out a bit farther so that she will have some sort of pain medication for more than the four days prescribed. She doesn't want to take it all these first few days and not have anything for any pain relief later. This was one of the main concerns that she shared with the doctor before the surgery in hopes of being able to get back to clinicals late next week. She wanted to make sure that the pain would be under control in the beginning so that she could rest and hopefully heal quickly.  I just can't figure out why a doctor would only prescribe four days of medication after a serious surgery while another doctor would prescribe a whole month worth of medication when we were under the impression that the bulging discs were causing the problems. So please continue to pray that God will help relieve the pain and let her rest and heal quickly and completely.  Thank you so much to everyone that has called and brought dinners by. 

Chris

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Finally Home

Elizabeth finally got home around 1 pm today, however she is battling some major pain after the surgery.  She woke up in the middle of the night in extreme pain and it took them a little while to get it back under control and she was able to get a few hours of pretty good sleep.  She was also supposed to have a pain management consultant this morning to try some different combinations of medicines, but they did not show up by the time she was discharged.  So, we are now still waiting for the Dr. to call back and see if we can try something different to control the pain.  Please continue to pray that the pain will be relieved and that she can rest comfortably.  Thanks again for your prayers and thoughts in helping Elizabeth get through this.

Chris

Monday, March 28, 2011

Another Update

Well, we finally got a room around 3 pm and she is now resting for a bit.  And of course, she got to eat some of her favorite food.....Chipotle.  She has also decided to stay the night tonight to make sure that her pain will stay under control and managed.  So the plan is for her to get discharged tomorrow morning after breakfast.  She has also been up and around a few times this afternoon and has been doing pretty good for having surgery this morning. 

For everyone that would like to know...Emilia did a fantastic job today being at the hospital since 6 am (up at 5:20) and with no nap.  She and Hudson had a good time and had fun walking to the gift shop and buying a "Get Well Soon" bear.  God has blessed me with two wonderful girls in my life.  Thank you again!!

Chris

Update for Elizabeth

Great update for Elizabeth's surgery.  She is finished with surgery and everything went very well.  She is in recovery right now and is responding to commands, but is still very sleepy.  The surgeon removed two small pieces of the disc fragment that was compressing the nerve. He said that once they were removed the small pieces, the nerve returned back to where it is supposed to be....I just got back from visiting her and she is awake and talking.  She is in quite a bit of pain, but the nurses are working to reduce it.  I will update again later, but the great news is that the surgery was a success and everything is still intact, so no fusions.  Thank you again for everyone's prayers and support through all of this.  I just want to thank God for watching over Elizabeth through this and helping calm and comfort her heart during this.  He is an amazing God!

Chris

Sunday, March 27, 2011

all my bags are packed...

So tomorrow is the big day, and I find myself getting calmer and less nervous as I get closer to the time of surgery, and I am so thankful to God for that. I had an absolutely wonderful weekend with Chris and Emilia, complete with a trip to kaleidoscope and topped off with a caramel and M&M apple… can it get much better than that? Then today we went to church and listened to an excellent sermon and lesson in class, and had a great time with friends this evening.  It was a great weekend, and I am so grateful for all the kind words and prayers. I know God will be watching over me tomorrow, and guiding the hands of those caring for me. I am hoping to come home tomorrow evening, but realistically I will be staying overnight and coming home Tuesday. Chris will be updating the blog when I get out of surgery safely, and when I come home.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

change of plans

Prior to yesterday, I had scheduled surgery April 7th with Dr. B at St Jo. Fear got the best of me Thursday night and I began searching for neurosurgeon lawsuits (which are public records), and came across a public case for a patient with the last name Jenkins that was paralyzed by a local neurosurgeon at St Jo. I will admit this paralysis was not caused by Dr. B, but it still freaked me out a bit, rightly so, right? Anyways, after reading this I was glad I had agreed to my mom’s request that I get a 2nd opinion. So I met with another neurosurgeon that operates and teaches at KU. My mom knows him and his office manager, and when she called and explained my situation/diagnosis, they offered to get me in the next day, which was yesterday. Yesterday’s appointment was much different from my 1st neurosurgeons appointment. If you recall the 1st neurosurgeon I met with, Dr. B. actually told me to go home and reread my MRI report, that it was obvious that I had a disc fragment causing my issues, and he actually made me cry, which is pretty hard to do! You may be asking why I would go ahead and schedule my surgery with him? Working in the medical field, I have a theory that bedside manners should be a mandatory class for physicians, because they spend so much time in school that some social skills are lost, but this does not make them incompetent in the operating room, just hard to talk to. Luckily, the 2nd neurosurgeon, Dr. H., being a teacher himself, had a much better personality, and actually spent 2 hours with Chris and I, going over my test results.  After him walking us step by step through my CT, it was obvious there was a disc fragment causing my issues, and he explained it is something you know looking backward- once you operate. He said every patient that has this CT scan findings, he will go in and find the same thing, which is why it is obvious to a neurosurgeon, not a radiologist, who writes the CT report. So he said the 1st neurosurgeon was right in his diagnosis, but wrong in the fact that the report did not diagnose this issue, it was something he knew by looking at the CT. He also said the 1st neurosurgeon was very good, but he would also be happy to do the surgery, but this is where it gets more interesting. He offered me surgical options, where as Dr. B did not- sold! There are 2 options, and I will explain them. Option 1 (which is what Dr. B. wanted to do): an incision is made in the front of your neck on the opposite side of the issue, and they enter at a diagonal angle, push your “voice box” out of the way, and go for the bad disc. You will have the bad discs removed, and your vertebra fused using “donor” bone or a metal plate. Pros: higher reimbursement for the surgeon (seriously?!)and less pain for the patient because you don’t go through any major muscles… sounds good, right? Cons: loss of some mobility because your discs are fused, risk of complications from moving your “voice box,” which can range from permanent hoarseness to loss of the ability to talk, difficulty swallowing, which can be temporary or permanent, and I should mention that they do go right next to your carotid artery, which is a risk as well, oh, and no pregnancy for awhile, because your bones must heal first. Option 2: the “old school” approach, the surgeon will enter through the posterior (back), cut through a ligament, and pull the muscle away from bone to enter, remove the broken off piece of disc, and sew you up. Pros: you eliminate all the voice/swallowing/carotid artery risks, and they don’t fuse discs, or remove bulging discs that are not causing me issues, and pregnancy is not an issue, just as soon as your neck is healed.  Cons: lower reimbursement for the surgeon (which is why many don’t offer it), and the pain and recovery is more significant because the muscles are pulled away from the bone and must heal. Risk of paralysis is equal for both surgeries. Dr B. had also wanted to fix all my bulging discs, that are not causing me problems and have probably been there for awhile, but this would leave me with a multilevel fusion (AKA loss of more mobility). So Dr. H let me choose… drum roll, please! I will be going with the 2nd option, and here’s why…. I fear complications, not pain; I don’t want my vertebral discs fused, because you are setting yourself up for osteoarthritis when you do this at 30 years of age; and I don’t want a scar on my neck… haha! Ok I am actually joking about the last one, because they hide it in neck creases, so you don’t really have one!  And I will be having it done Monday morning, instead of waiting. It just so happened that while I was there for an appointment, they had to move his 1st surgery on Monday to the next week, because the patient is sick, and anesthesia won’t allow a sick patient to be put under, so he offered me the spot, and I agreed, but with a contingency- he would be the only one operating. Weird request? Nope, KU is a teaching hospital, and he is a teacher! He agreed, as long as I would agree to let the resident watch, since this procedure is not as common anymore, and I said they could watch, just not touch!  He said my loss of arm function was impressive (which I think is a weird way to refer to it!), and he thinks the sooner we do it, the better outcome I will have.  For once, I am glad I listened to my mom (yes, I am putting this on record), because I feel so much more comfortable with this procedure and surgeon, which I think will lead to a better outcome. I am a bit nervous about the pain and recovery, because I will be trying to return to clinicals 10 days after surgery, which means no pain meds while at work, but I am just hoping my body recovers quickly.  Oh, and I will be graduating with my class on time in May, and will finish clinicals the week after graduation. Yea!

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

bummed

So today I find myself bummed… while there are many other words I could use, such as angry, sad and scared, I think that bummed is a good summary. I have officially scheduled my spinal surgery- April 7th. I am trying to accept that I am not improving and that I am risking loosing my muscle function by avoiding surgery, but this is easier said than done. I have worked so hard the past 3 years to complete graduate school, while balancing home, school and work, and here I am 6 weeks before graduation faced with a choice to make… graduate and possibly not regain my left arm strength or have surgery and delay graduation.  Not to mention the risks associated with spinal surgery or anesthesia. It’s weird, because I have had 3 surgeries prior to now, and had no problem with recovery or anesthesia, but these were all prior to having Emilia. The thought of something happening to me that allows me unable to care for her just scares me senseless and frankly makes me cry. When a baby is going to be born premature, the mother gets a “NICU consult.” This is where the neonatal nurse practitioner goes in and basically tells the mom what to expect with her baby- everything that could possibly go right or wrong. This week I did my first consult. The mom came in with extremely elevated blood pressure and was going to have an emergency c-section, and I went in to talk to her prior to delivery. She was teary and I could see she was scared, but I reassured her that her baby should do well and that babies are born frequently at this gestation and do well, but I could see how fearful she was. Her baby’s delivery was routine to me, and I was right, he was fine, but today as I went to my appointment and spoke with my doctor, and he gave me the same “routine” speech, I could relate to the fear I saw in her face. Lucky for my doctor, I deal with my fear with dry sarcasm, and I actually told him I may be willing to sacrifice my left arm function permanently to avoid surgery, but the truth was, I was only partly joking. It’s not so bad being weak in the left arm, and if I did not want to have more children, I would not have surgery, but the truth is I could not pick up a child right now if my life depended on it. I can do my job, and function at home with the help of Chris, but I could not lift a little one at all. Emilia is old enough I don’t have to carry her, but I want more children… many more, and I need to be able to hold and carry them, so I feel as if I have no choice, unless Chris and I give up our dream of a large family. It’s a difficult decision either way. So surgery is in 2 weeks, but I will be exhausting all options until then and am scheduled for my 1st  decompression therapy with cold laser therapy next week at my chiropractor’s office. I am praying for a miracle from God, to get complete feeling and muscle function back, but regardless of what happens, I do know God’s plan is perfect, and I am learning more than ever to rely on Him, and maybe that is just what His plan is for me.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

I've got friends!


I have to admit that I have never been one to have an over abundance of  close friends... just a few, but I have to say these few have been my lifesaver and my support through the past few years in grad school and the challenges that life has thrown us along the way. I am not sure why I thought this circumstance would be any different, but I have had so many nice surprises over the past few week... I have has several families from church bring meals, which was a huge blessing, and then I had other friends offer to visit and bring their kiddos for company for Emilia and I when I was supposed to stay "down." I am no good at staying down, but the company was so appreciated. My friend, Audrey and her daughter, Emily, made the above pictured treats for us, and Emilia has the chocolate leftover on her cheeks!


         
Her friends, Lilly, Bently and Joshua, have given me an assortment of sweet cards, and these have brought such happiness to my heart!